I hope this letter reaches you in time before it’s too late. I am writing this letter to the person or persons who broke into my car over the weekend. I entered my vehicle late that night, to find my items in disarray. A noticeable amount of possessions were missing at first glance. As I rummaged through my car I felt as if the person or persons took their time searching my vehicle for valuables. The items you took were mostly material possessions, and are replaceable at a cost. One item you did take though, wasn’t mine. We were planning a trip for addicts and alcoholics in recovery to Six Flags, to show them a life without drugs and alcohol can be fun. A great time and effort was put into planning this event, allocating funds, and encouraging recovering addicts to attend. The tickets that were taken from my car did not belong to me. They belonged to others who are recovering from a life time of poor decisions and addiction. You did take something else though, my security. One certain item that was taken allows entrance into my personal home. The feeling of a safe home has left me as I search every corner of my house before getting any relief. As I sat in my car this morning, I felt as if this car no longer belonged to me. Silence haunted me as I drove my car for the first time since the incident, no longer having a music device to play tunes to accompany me during my long drives. The loose change from gas station purchases and late night fast food trips no longer rattled. The echoing silence of an empty car made my mind race full of thoughts of who and why someone would do this. Then I had a realization. I also would participate in similar behavior during my active addiction. Taking things that didn’t belong to me, to supply my ever growing drug habit. Was this Karma for past mistakes I made? At that moment, I realized that I’m not mad at the person who stole my items, but if you’re suffering from a disease of addiction that causes you to do things you wouldn’t normally do, I’m mad at the disease. I am here to tell you that life can be different.
There were two books in my back seat that I hope you noticed. Just in case you overlooked the books, let me take some time to tell you about them. They’re both titled “Alcoholics Anonymous” or often called The Big Book. This was the book that changed my life. I was once a hopeless addict. The hopelessness may not have been all that apparent in my younger years to those around me, because I was functioning relatively well in my life despite my opioid addiction and heroin addiction. Nonetheless, my disease was clearly getting worse as time passed eventually leading me towards an empty, homeless, and broken part of my life. Basically it felt like complete and utter hopelessness, trapped in a downward spiral leading only to pain and eventually death. I was willing to do anything to anyone because I thought heroin was the only way I could face life. I never considered the problem to be myself or a disease. I ran my life into the ground. I was 20 years old in September 2012, when I entered treatment and was presented with a solution to my problem. Alcoholics Anonymous has blessed my life in more ways than I can count. It was kept my sober since 2012, a task which seemed impossible when I was using drugs. I have begun to rebuild a life that I ruined during my addiction. I am able to work through difficult times with tools that were taught to me. I am reaching out to you, to let you know that I am not mad, the items are replaceable. I care more about you and helping you out. If you’re suffering from this disease, please seek help.
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